For the Days We Feel Broken: How Brave Surrender Helps Us Get Out of Survival Mode
By Amanda Jass
God's Brave Women - Amanda's Story
“I feel like I’m broken.”
These are the exact words I said to my husband a few months after having our third sweet baby girl. I had struggled with anxiety before, but this was new.
I could literally feel the intensity of the overwhelm in my stomach, arms, and legs. I couldn’t relax as I dwelled on worst-case scenarios, which led to repeated panic attacks. I could barely see the next step in front of me with the heavy fog of worry. I loved my daughter, but I wasn’t feeling connected in the same way I did with my older two by that point. I wasn’t enjoying the beautiful moments in front of me.
In many ways, I was broken.
Saying those words out loud turned out to be a critical step. It allowed me to realize that I needed help. I needed to surrender my brokenness by letting God and others in. And this would take many more big, brave steps.