Having Courage to Believe in God's Faithfulness

By Becki Baxter

God's Brave Women - Becki's Story

The speedometer barely hovered above the 5 mile per hour mark as our van crept up the never ending, pot-holed driveway to our neighbor’s farm house. Every inch we covered brought more anxiety and panic in my chest. “So who’s going to do the talking? Me or you?” I ask my husband. Fear burns in me, but since we’re over half way to our destination, there is no turning back now. Even if we wanted to, the slender driveway wouldn’t allow a turn around. The only direction to go was forward, so forward we went -- slowly. “Why do you have to make a plan? Why don’t we just wing it?” was my husband’s reply. We normally see eye to eye on things, but my insecurity versus his indifference was all the more unnerving. How can I feel so nervous and he is totally fine? I thought to myself. That is, until he admitted he had planned to just stay in the car…

A couple weeks prior to this, we felt God was asking us start an Alpha* group in our home. Since we had just moved to a new place in the country, where homes are few and far between, we felt that God was asking us to invite our neighbors. Knowing that it would be awkward because we hadn’t even met them yet, my stomach turned for two weeks until enough was enough. If it wasn’t happening that particular day, it wasn’t happening at all.

Hardly a picture of your typical missionaries, we bickered our way to the first house to share the ‘Good News’. Yes, it was uncomfortable. I was anxious about their response and the possibility of rejection. However, what spurred me on was a phrase from a message about obedience I had just recently heard:

“Our God is the God of outcomes”

"God had asked us to invite our neighbors. That’s all my job entails: ask! Whatever the outcome may be, that is God’s job."

God had asked us to invite our neighbors.